Do you still remember..?

Do you remember? remember those days? Those carefree days where all of us would talk until well in the morning? The days where we mix and matched our favourite songs and didn't care how good or bad others were? Where we would discuss couples and everyone had their partner which they didn't agree upon, but still were teased with? Where you would wait for me -patiently- to come from university to show me your new music video or tell me about your day..?

The days where you told me you loved me as the brother you never had.. The days where you called me; at night; crying; to tell me you'd never want to lose me because I was so important to you..? You and me and our 10 babynames for our 10 imaginary kids.. You and me and my jokes that always cheered you up from any dreary day.. You and me and the poems I recited for you with that passion in my voice and you listening.. minutes, hours, days.. to my voice..


Oh, I solemnly miss those days.. Those days where time stood still.. Where did they go..? Where did you go..? What happened to you..? To us..?

I know.. I wasn't that good of a big brother for you.. too kind, too playful, too.. immature.. not someone you'd look up to.. someone that passed their mystery and their peak and was on it's way down.. Cruel as you became I still cared for you.. I still wrote my poems for you, I still started my conversations with you..
I still....
Loved you..