I want to love!

You know it's been two year since I like someone for the last time, personally I think that's quite a long time.

to me it is since I really like to be in love, it encourages me for doing my best in whatever I do.

And I've never had a boyfriend before, I didn't even confess to someone before because I'm just to shy to do something like that

It's just that I would love it to be in love and maybe have a boyfriend but I simply do not fall in love, Yes there are boys I think are nice: for example my piano teacher (he's 20 so don't think he's an old jerk or something ;P) I think he's nice and I may say that to people but don't "like" him, he's just nice.

I just hate not falling in love!


It bothers me so I decided to write it down and so the text above was created ^^

I can understand the feeling of wanting to find love but falling in love, in my opinion, is one of the best yet worst moments of your teenage years.

I'll admit that I have fallen in love once before and I still have very strong feelings for this guy. Other than him, I've only really had two people that I've "liked" growing up. Alot of people say that having someone you like is the best thing but it isn't a walk in the park. You could fall for someone else but they could completely shatter you, play around with those emotions, deny your feelings, etc. It's the most painful emotion a human being can feel.

Besides, you're only 16. Got a long time yet, babe xx

I know it's not innocent and I know that people can play around with you. but that may be a reason that I never tell anyone who I like not even the person himself. (since they are the most dangerous)

but since I last liked someone I also learned myself that I would never let myself get blinded by love anymore and I think that may also be a reason that I do not fall in love anymore, maybe I've become to critical

I know I'm still young but It's just, when I hear all these thing around me about boyfriends and stuff I feel lonely, also because I never had a boyfriend people think I don't understand things when it comes to relations

Oh something else that counts is that nobody ever told me they liked me

I'm going to be 19 in a few months and I've never EVER been in a relationship, yes people make fun of me for it, yes I'm lonely and yes I cry a lot, but I just keep telling myself that someday it'll come to me. You're a wonderful girl and I don't know why you wouldn't be able to get a boyfriend, just wait hun, you'll find someone that will like you and that you'll like in return. I know how hard it is when everyone around you is in a relationship and you're not, it feels like one of the worst feelings in the world.

but just wait, and besides you're still young ^^ you have lots of time ahead of you.

Whenever I confess to someone that I like them, they just laugh and tell me I'm fat or ugly and that they're not interested and that they'd rather be friends with me.

That's all I ever am to guys, a friend.
it hurts. but what can I do about it? nothing.

so I say, just keep your chin up, smile and enjoy your life without having to think about who you'll love or who loves you, it'll come to you when the time comes. <3

I feel guilty now because I said these things even though you're probably in more pain than I am

"I know how hard it is when everyone around you is in a relationship and you're not, it feels like one of the worst feelings in the world."
Yeah! it's cruel, three friends of me are going on a three-double date (with their boyfriends) and I can't come along

How can people be so cruel, laughing at you even though you were brave enough to confess, that's horrible!

Well I'm keeping up my chin already, I always pretend I don't care and that I enjoy my freedom even though that's a big lie yet everyone believes me. And I don't think I can hold it any longer better yet I already told a friend that it bothered me but I think she forgot about that already. even though it took me some courage to come up with that

I can only say things that are already said. Just be patient, you're still young and so on. But I understand your impatience too, but no matter how sad and lonely it might feel, be careful to NEVER force falling in love. Because if you're looking for love, and then someone seems to like you, it's very easy to convince yourself that you're in love with that person, even when you're not, and you DON'T want to be in a relationship with someone you don't love, trust me. It's even worse than not being in a relationship at all.

I might not be one to talk since I've been in a relationship twice, but to be honest, I wish I had not. Out of the two boys I've dated, I never really loved either of them, I just couldn't say 'no' to the offer of being loved or something... And I told myself I didn't had the right to be picky, because I wasn't gonna get someone better. This sounds really really stupid of course, and it is, but at the time, it made perfect sense to me.

And @Jessy; Those guys are horrible, making fun of you even though you found the courage to confess to you. Maybe it's a good thing they rejected you in the end, because people like that don't even deserve to be in a relationship with someone as wonderful at you! <3 I'm sure you'll find someone who'll love you back, if only someone gets to know you first. I personally think you're beautiful, but I know 'being fat' can be a problem at that point. But even so, I'm convinced that once the right guy gets to know you, he'll surely fall for you in an instant, because you're just a very very lovable person! <3

Don't worry about that, I know I won't, I'm also not going to search for it or something. many girls I know do so, I guess it always ends in a one-week-relationship